Tell Me Tuesday is a weekly blog feature put on by La La in the Library. It is where we talk about the books we have been reading and will be reading and why. So, tell us.
NOW (JUST FINISHED)
This was such a raw and powerful book about sixteen year old, Pea (a nickname) struggling and dealing with the monster within herself.
“I have a monster living inside me that constantly tells me what to do, what to think, how to behave, who to love, how to act, how to react, what and when I should eat…He makes me depressed, he makes me anxious, He controls my moods and my emotion, my anger and my sadness. I’ve had it, or him, my whole life.”
Pea has an unusual eating disorder that basically is an aversion to food. It controls her life and affects her relationship with her parents and friends. When Pea meets Ben, things seem to get better. The monster seems satified and quiet so Pea decides to go off of her medication. A downward spiral occurs. Pea starts to hurt herself and is sent to a psychiatric hospital. Reading about her experiences there and hitting rock bottom was gut wrenching and heart breaking. Through this experience, Pea, realizeds that she does need help.
“Only you can do this…You want to be free of the monster…free so you can have a better life, a good life, and be able to do the things normal girls can do, and be free from the constraining feelings you have all the time.”
This book was honest and gritty and showed the many struggles that teens have to deal with on a daily basis.
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